
Between chewable Pepto and having my Pucci’s cleaned, it’s hard to say where the weekend went. I jest. Baby, thanks for those things, but really, they’re just the icing on a very large and insurmountable cake. Or in our case, a 6-inch tower of soft-serve.
Retrospectively speaking, the memories seem ephemeral but not because they are unworthy of being remembered. It’s because there are so many of them. And though the majority are not characterized by grandiosity, they are marked with love and a simple appreciation for what it means to have found it.
Most of our time is spent just languishing in each other’s company: whether it be sprawling out bedside crosswording it NYTimes-style on a languid afternoon, or doing dumplings at Moonhouse, or a spontaneous Chinatown search for the cheapest cool shoes (ever), we are an entity unto our own. At least that’s how it feels. Always coming into our own, and occurring together. It sounds a bit silly and contrived, but it’s the best I can do. Don’t laugh. Now I’m embarrassed.
I owe you a tremendous amount of gratitude really, but I don’t think I’m capable of thanking you in any conventional sense, just some approximation of the favor that comes in the return of unadulterated affection. I hope you can (and will) entrust yourself to me because I will keep you safe.
It’s a real struggle to not write the highfalutin mumbo jumbo I’m used to, especially since it was you who made me weary of it. When I said you were self-sufficient it was with the greatest degree of admiration – everything distills to a higher level of clarity when I see through your eyes. And it’s not because you installed 3 fantastic little lights in my room. Or cleaned it when you went on that rampage.
I know I make your life a little tough sometimes. It’s the sentimentality, and girly wishfulness that’s to blame. Problem is, I’ve got these heady afflictions that are often unfounded, and often (I think) quite fair. I will do my best to manage the things that make me a head case, if you will tolerate them long enough. In return, I will put up with your hogging all the space in bed and other notable items that should probably go unannounced.
I’m tired, and everything I’ve said has been far too abstract to make this post worthy of your time.
Love you, and hope you get everything done in time. I’m sending you good vibrations that go Zzzzzzzzzzzzz.